Re: FW: gunnery
Sam Rosenthal (sam.rosenthal@ucop.edu)
Mon, 12 Jan 1998 14:52:07 +0100
i'm amazed that this was the only response to my post
>In a message dated 98-01-08 17:50:47 EST, you write:
>
><< that whatever the hell he was thinking on the driveway that
> day with charlotte was somehow connected in his mind, by some seymour
> logic, to throwing a rock at himself >>
>
>this is incoherant because i'm trying to use a written language to describe
>feelings that could never be classified and written...think of these words as
>approximations, d'ac?
>i always was under the impression that these two things were like a parallel /
>reciprocal cause and effect: seymour threw that rock because she was too
>perfect, and too beautiful in what she was...he interrupted her and by that
>ended the perfection he was seeing [as he was young he didn't know how to deal
>with it]. he shot himself because he still saw the beauty of humanity and
>simple human-ness and, well, everything---as too beautiful and perfect in
>being what it is for him to possibly bear...futile, in a sense...but he could
>no longer bear that kind of happiness-agony. so he shot himself, not
>them...throwing the rock was only temporary...he could only throw a certain
>number of 'rocks' at the beauty...the bullet was, um, permanent...for him.
>bethany