I'm disappointed that my post to her page isn't there--it was a long one I wrote last night after driving 3 hours to Denver and back to hear the author read. I'll try and recollect the event here as best I can, but unlike Ms. Maynard, I don't pretend to trust my memory and perception, so if I'm a bit fragmented or sound off-key, I'm sorry and tired and have too much to do today to even be writing this... Ms. Maynard is a phony pure and simple. The first thing she did before beginning her book was complain that her book had been "reviewed" before she wrote it...for those less savvy, she was actually complaining about successful hype...she and her publisher not only did a good job of hyping the book before it was written, but her home page will sell you the book and send you a silly recipe and pretend to make you think Ms. Maynard is this homey writer interested in cooking and parenting. She's quite a sick person--I could see her spirit and I sat in the front row with lenses made by Po Lo and Chiu-fang Kao. She explained that the book she wrote was about her, not Mr. Salinger, and proceeded to read all the stuff from her book that had been excerpted in VAnity Fair or discussed in her reivews--from beginning to end of the reading of the text, what she read had already been publicized and everything, yes, everything she chose to read concerned "Jerry." She explained that her daughter turning 18 helped her realize she should discuss what she never could before, though she never mentioned how her daughter may feel about her mom blabbing on and on about herself as though she were really revealing great insights but really just selling second rate gossip. In listening to Ms. Maynard read, it became increasingly clear her anger at her alcoholoic father was focused on Mr. Salinger...probably then and seemingly now. I enjoyed her reading voice but somewhere, I seemed to remember an evil character in 101 Dalmations and wondered if she was embodying that memory of a film I was when I as 7...but I don't trust memory and hype its truth the way she does and I may have to see 101 Dalmations again... After about 30 minutes of reading most of the Salinger stuff from her book and nothing else, the author took questions. She had mentioned that she was open to controversy and even welcomed venting. I was the second question and tried to politiely ask about what she knew of what Salinger was writing after he stopped publishing. She went into a tirade about how her book was about her and all these people just want to know about "The Great Writer," not "The Truth Woman." (This is her dichotomy in her her phrasing!) I stood my ground politely, asking for permission to reply and explaining that she had read about salinger, I learned about the manuscripts in the safe from her writing, and readers can be interested in lots of things authors aren't...she apoloigized and even let me discuss some more issues though I'm not clear aobut the substance of them in my memory. I do remember her snipeing at me about worshipping the great man (happy scottie?) though I hadn't said anything (maybe it was calling him "Mr. Salinger", eh?) and knew Ms. Maynard had made me the Salinger straw man to vent her anger on since so many critics had sliced and diced her. I stood up to her again when she mentioned how rude Salinger was and how badly he acted toward her readers since it was then she attacking beliefs about him...I simply told her that she herself said she hadn't known anything about him for more than 2 decades and on the page, where it really counts, he respects his readers. I didn't say it then but I'll say it know. On the page Ms. Maynard is boring and so self-centered it's silly. After the reading, I explained that I'm a Salinger scholar more interested in his writing than hers, but not against any author publishing a book and agreeing that she has a right to do that. I don't think Salinger has a right to prohibit her book, but I do agree with his opinion that her writing is trivial and meaningless gossip. Ms. Maynard did have the grace to apologize to me. I was aware that her attack at me (not based on what I said) was probably the hazard of a road trip with lots of readings and plenty of Salinger fans giving her static. I told her if she really wanted to apoligize, she should spend a little time on our list. So as I drove the road home from Denver, I could barely hold the wheel wishingfor a keyboard instead...I wrote a long post to her page and it's not there now--complete with login instructions to our list--but maybe it's slow to be served--we'll see. Believe it or not, I wanted to like Ms. Maynard. For one thing, she's web savvy and my age and that connects. For another, the only person with eyes as big as her's I know is my wife--and we even share some New Hampshire roots...and I wondered since so much press was so negative if there wasn't more to it...but I've met a good number of authors and when I'm using f2f to triangulate a sense of them, I've learned how dicey that is enough to try and see what is "superlative" and not let the human stuff stop my reading realities...but I saw a woman claiming feminism and revelation (she now feels she wouldn't her daughter to take up with a 50 year old man...but doesn't seem to mind her daughter dealing with the publicity of their difficult family history) for prose that is ultimately boring and so self centered it lacks the purpose she is claiming for it...and just as her prose falls into itself pathetically, so does her persona...self centered and not seeking intelligence (she still sounds like she doesn't read much but I didn't get to ask what she and "Jerry" liked to read between tv episodes...), Ms. Maynard may makes some good $ from her book, but she hasn't made good words. Who knows, maybe someday her daughter will write about her messed up mother...I'll probablyfrive too far for that book too, will