I wonder did I *ever* believe in Santa Claus? I somehow doubt it. I seem to have imbibed scepticism along with my mother's milk. The question does, however, evoke a vivid memory which - thanks to a particular circumstance - I can date rather precisely. On the eve of my seventh birthday (Dec. 23), I was walking home with my father along a snow covered street in the small country town in Scotland where we lived at that time. It was a night bright with a big, full moon. Trying - as ever - to be the comic, I made a great pantomime of suddenly glancing up at the sky & acting as if stunned by a fleeting glimpse of Santy & his reindeer already on their way, two days early. My father reacted with a dramatic continuation of the same pretence. When he persisted with the charade, though - even after I'd insisted I was only fooling - he did so with the kind of knowing smile that made us both conspirators. It was a wonderfully satisfying episode. *I* knew that *he* knew that *I* knew there was no such individual. In maintaining the joke, however, he had quite suddenly brought me into the company of the grown ups - the grown ups who maintain a vast edifice of rubbish with the specific purpose of keeping stupid people & small children in their place. I realised I'd now been promoted out of their company. I was one of the big boys at last. Scottie B.