Re: wisdom again

Hotbuns200@aol.com
Fri, 28 May 1999 00:34:49 -0400 (EDT)

Jake, that is the most beautiful letter I have ever read.  My thoughts 
exactly (except my thoughts sounded crappier and I'm not always that happy 
and I hated Goodwill Hunting).  I hope you don't mind if I print your letter 
and keep it (that's not actually a question 'cause I already printed it).
 - Adam

In response to:

And just what is to be considered Finer Knowledge? I mean, I struggle with
introspective bullshit thoughts and feelings and questions that I pose to
myself almost daily. (Not to mention entertaining the old Hemingway exit.) I
look around and see many people whose one true worry in life seems to be if
their socks match their shirts. Some movie I watched last night had this
woman offering a toast to her companion. The toast was something like "Those
of us who know better still get up in the morning anyway".  And I agree.
Regardless of how easy or hard it is to be wise. Sometimes I find myself
wishing aloud even that I was "like them". All carefree and happy. But who
is to say? I seriously doubt that wisdom could ever hold the hand of
happiness. And I have countless reasons that are too many to fit here. (Like
Fermat's Last Theorem where he states he found a marvelous proof but had no
room in the margins to write it.) But I do consider myself to be wise. And
doesn't that make me stupid? (Plato?) There are times when I secretly wish
that people could get a load of all the books I have going on my nightstand.
Would Good Will Hunting been as cool if he didn't have the asshole college
guy to spout off to about all the books he knew and the philosophies he
adopted? And there are other times when I wish that I had a drivers license
and even a damned automobile. That way I could show the macho guys whats
under my proverbial hood and chicks would just go crazy. There are times I
want to go out fishing and catch the biggest fish. (Maybe I could grow a
mustache by itself and hunt.) But the problem is that I never want the women
that would think that sort of stuff to be desirable. But just why the hell
isn't it? I take up eighteen different hobbies at a time just to keep myself
going. Just for something to do. I am painting a new one every other day at
least just to try and convince myself there is some point. I come to work
and check my mail and actually look forward to what you all have to offer on
this list. Meanwhile the secretary checks her stocks as much as I check this
list and I used to scoff at her. But who is better off? She is dumb as a box
of hair but seems happy as hell with little pictures of her children and
pets and all that crap. And I am not unhappy mind you. I am really liking
the way things are going for me. I just wonder if the white trash mobile
home people can ever be truly without Finer Knowledge. I just wonder if I
can ever be truly happy with it.
I still get up in the morning.
Solid handshakes,
-Jake