Re: wisdom again

Thor Cameron (my_colours@hotmail.com)
Fri, 28 May 1999 13:18:16 -0700 (PDT)

I'm with ya, brother Jake.
My curent philosophy:
We are doomed to only want what we cannot have and only be offered that 
which we do not want.
Namaste,
Thor




>Thor wrote:
> >Once you have a taste for the finer knowledge, you cannot go back to the
> >baser, beastial pleasures.  I am grateful that I'm a (former) Mensa 
>member,
> >but knowledge and philosophy have not brought me joy.  I'm currently
> >entertaining the notion that knowledge/wisdom and happiness are mutually
> >exclusive. I entertain suicidal fantasies daily.  I am compelled to read 
>&
> >know more.  Knowledge satisfies my thirst, but it does not make me 
>happy...
>
>And just what is to be considered Finer Knowledge? I mean, I struggle with
>introspective bullshit thoughts and feelings and questions that I pose to
>myself almost daily. (Not to mention entertaining the old Hemingway exit.) 
>I
>look around and see many people whose one true worry in life seems to be if
>their socks match their shirts. Some movie I watched last night had this
>woman offering a toast to her companion. The toast was something like 
>"Those
>of us who know better still get up in the morning anyway".  And I agree.
>Regardless of how easy or hard it is to be wise. Sometimes I find myself
>wishing aloud even that I was "like them". All carefree and happy. But who
>is to say? I seriously doubt that wisdom could ever hold the hand of
>happiness. And I have countless reasons that are too many to fit here. 
>(Like
>Fermat's Last Theorem where he states he found a marvelous proof but had no
>room in the margins to write it.) But I do consider myself to be wise. And
>doesn't that make me stupid? (Plato?) There are times when I secretly wish
>that people could get a load of all the books I have going on my 
>nightstand.
>Would Good Will Hunting been as cool if he didn't have the asshole college
>guy to spout off to about all the books he knew and the philosophies he
>adopted? And there are other times when I wish that I had a drivers license
>and even a damned automobile. That way I could show the macho guys whats
>under my proverbial hood and chicks would just go crazy. There are times I
>want to go out fishing and catch the biggest fish. (Maybe I could grow a
>mustache by itself and hunt.) But the problem is that I never want the 
>women
>that would think that sort of stuff to be desirable. But just why the hell
>isn't it? I take up eighteen different hobbies at a time just to keep 
>myself
>going. Just for something to do. I am painting a new one every other day at
>least just to try and convince myself there is some point. I come to work
>and check my mail and actually look forward to what you all have to offer 
>on
>this list. Meanwhile the secretary checks her stocks as much as I check 
>this
>list and I used to scoff at her. But who is better off? She is dumb as a 
>box
>of hair but seems happy as hell with little pictures of her children and
>pets and all that crap. And I am not unhappy mind you. I am really liking
>the way things are going for me. I just wonder if the white trash mobile
>home people can ever be truly without Finer Knowledge. I just wonder if I
>can ever be truly happy with it.
>I still get up in the morning.
>Solid handshakes,
>-Jake
>
>


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