Jim, What a wise post. I really could have used it in 1973, when I was all of 22 and she was 33 with three children. But, God, what a poet she was! --Bruce -----Original Message----- From: AntiUtopia@aol.com > << i wonder...is it better to be jaded or naive? > I like William Blake's take on the thing. You start out >naive (innocence), become jaded (experience), then move past that to a state >... uhm ... something like "wise innocence." > >What I really believe isn't necessarily all that jaded, however. Let me try >to describe the progression here in the context of our discussion now. > >Innocence: It's pretty easy (as a young man) to make much of being confided >in by a (somewhat) older woman (who's still just a very large child herself >-- but really, for all that matter, she may be a woman your age or younger. >It doesn't matter). Easy to develop an exaggerated sense of the real >intimacy that's taking place, etc. **Especially** if you're having sex. Boy >does that complicate things. > >Experience: And then you move through all that and you find out it really >wasn't as deep and meaningful as you once thought -- really, she would talk >to **anyone** that was there and willing to listen. And that the real rush >was the feeling of closeness itself, not the closeness "to that particular >person." I mean, when the crisis is over and the two of you are together >with nothing but the two of you (and not your pain in common) -- do you have >a lot to talk about then? You don't get to find out until the crisis is >over, of course. That's the rub :) > >Wise Innocence: Once you've seen what's been really happening you're in a >position to develop a relationship based upon real intimacy -- based on >something other than one another's need and hurt. You find someone that you >have **strengths** in common with. Now That's a beautiful thing. It really >happens sometimes too. It's worth taking risks for, and worth waiting for. >When you're grown up enough to be ready for this kind of relationship, you >don't feel so needy. See, that's because you've become honest about your own >strengths. You feel good about them, are at ease with them, so are able to >relate to another person on that level. By this point you're even OK being >alone for awhile, in fact. That's because you don't need another person to >make you feel worth a Feces. You know you are. You're not intimidated by >others, so you're now able to really love them. Ah...my heart warms at the >thought of it :) > >That's the point at which I am optimistic and not jaded, etc. . . > >But, eh, it's not like I have any Experience with this sort of thing ;) > >Jim > >P.S. We were talking about the "innocence" vs. the "experience" perspectives >(though not in those terms) in my Irish Lit class last week. The innocent >knows "a" woman, the experienced knows "women." :) But I do think you can go >back to knowing "a" woman again after that. . .and it means more than it ever >did before. >